Saturday, 22 March 2008
wondering if and life hesitating
knowing ill be there to greet you for real
but not knowing quite what is the deal
I'm crying inside I'm sad and I'm lonely
wondering why? thinking if only
something unknown is driving my life
does it have to be this hard?
to find the right wife?
is hard to cope with the waiting, not knowing
but knowledge of love that you are always showing
makes it just bearable from day to day
thank you my love for showing the way
Friday, 15 February 2008
is this what lifes about
is this all there is?
to enjoy 2 way love one time
then live my life alone
to see the birth of all our kids
was something I'll never forget
just like the time you said "I do"
its etched into my mind
If ever I'm allowed to
move on with my life at all
I'm sure Ill find someone better than you
But is that what its all about?
You dont need me to tell you
how imperfect you are
you know too well all those things
which make you who you are.
Ive never wanted many things
to make my life complete
but it seems that you've always thought of me
as somewhere to wipe your feet
Do you really think that someone youve never met
can really make you realise
your mind is not upset?
I see the day quite clearly when you abandon all the kids
because you think the pressures too great
to deal with all their ills
I know deep down youre hurting
much more than anyone knows
but the more you try to hide it
the more it really shows
If your view of reality
is based on the internet
then surely you should read somemore
and discover why youre so upset with
all your family and friends
They are all there waiting for you to contact them
they are really scared of your moods
they dont want you to throw a strop
and never speak again
I sit here writing poetry
at 4am on why's that?
because I sleep so badly
dreaming of you treating me badly
and Im trying to run but you just wont let me go
Ive been you knight in shining ever since we met
I write all my own poetry I dont steal it off the net
I dont pretend to be someone I dont give false hope to the weak
I'm sure if you saw what you'd really done You'd be the first to speak
about how sorry you were and how much forgiving that you need
well guess who'd be there with that tender care that you'd need?
I know as poetry goes that this is not the best
it doesnt rhyme always and has bad structure too
But its how I need to say my peice
so yaboosucks to you
Saturday, 26 January 2008
I want to say yes without question
But my mind disagrees with heart
remembering what happens when
these things have to start.
Saying yes would be easy
saying no would be a lie
but theres so many things to do
before I can answer you.
Please dont think that I'm saying no
Thats not what i am saying
Im being cautious with our hearts
its not a game im playing
Your love to me is precious
I will take great care with it my dear
I have to be quite careful how
I plan things in this year.
Sunday, 20 January 2008
how long have you yearned for a touch that is real?
have you slept all alone with a passion and lust
waiting to find out who you can trust?
have you turned around quickly thinking I'm here
only to find out that no-one is there
desperately hoping and willing and wishing
that i was the one that you were right now kissing
looking across at the empty space in the bed
wondering about all that's been said
was it all words will you be here
will it be now will it be next year?